Fear is so debilitating. And the future is the scariest thing of them all. Every time I close my eyes, the nightmares come. The questions, the doubts, the fears. I wake up in a cold sweat, forgetting where I am, fighting to breathe. The nightmares still vivid.
So much uncertainty. So many chances for failure. So much left to luck or the vagaries of fate.
No one to trust. Anger and jealousy never far from the surface, stoked by the vile hands of fear.
It is a fear that chokes. For even words, those simple yet powerful charms, do not come. Sentences are left incomplete.
It is fear that overwhelms and consumes. And what makes it worse is that there is no one in the world who can help you. And you have to fight it alone. For everyone leaves and everyone has demons of their own.
It is a fear that makes thoughts tumble out with no sense of head or tail. It makes the strongest crumble into blithering idiots. It rules the mind.
There is nothing you can do but give in to it.